The Identity I Uphold
A Poem by: Ro Anamul Hasan
For the Project Ek Khaale
The Identity I Uphold
Myanmar denies my identity
In fear of my return to my homeland.
Bangladesh acknowledges my identity
In fear of my prolonged stay within their territory
Meanwhile, the Rakhine ethnic rejects my identity,
In fear of having to share our historical legacies.
I will not speak of
The term 'Rohingya'
That remained unburnt
In the documents I safeguard
During the flames of genocide.
I will not mention
The pages of ‘Rohingya’
That have been erased from the annals of history,
Evidence of my existence.
I will not highlight
The ancestral photographs
I stumbled upon years later
Within my grandparents' dilapidated box.
Neither I will remind you
Of the historical heritages,
That still endure on the soil of Arakan,
Obscured by overgrowth and debris.
I will not sing the ancient melodies—
Folksongs, lullabies, and poignant verses—
That encapsulate the lives and
narratives of my forefathers.
There exist numerous other substantiations
Of my identity as a Rohingya,
An Indigenous inhabitant of Arakan,
I opt against elaborating on these.
Why does my profound affection for Arakan
Course through my veins,
Permeating my very being?
Is it a falsehood?
How can I discern
The subtle nuances of the winds
that transverse the skies?
The air in Arakan beckons to me,
As if acquainted with me for an eternity.
Why does the resonance of my voice
Echo across the Mayyu Mountain from far?
When I call out, it responds me,
Seemingly lamenting for me incessantly.
Why do the waves of the Naf River
Pound against my heart until they reach the shore,
As it awaiting to reunite with me?
Every crest and trough seem to vocalise
A yearning for my return.
The breeze crossing the border
Carries with it the essence of Arakan.
As I inhale it, every cell in my body
Longs to return home.
Because of this identity,
I found myself seeking refuge in a distant land,
Directly under the shelter of a tent,
Away from the genocidal landscape
Where my once beloved home stood.
RO ANAMUL HASAN was born in 1997 in northern Maungdaw, Arakan. For Anamul, poetry and photography are like raising voices from an obscure life. He wishes the world to know his pain through his poetry and to see his sufferings through his photography.
His poems have been featured in I am a Rohingya, Rohingya Dreams, Poetry For Humanity, Oxfam, Frontier Myanmar and in several other anthologies. In 2020, he won the first prize in a poetry competition organized by the Danish Refugee Council, and a photography competition organized by the Japanese media. In 2022 his work was recognized by Erasmus University in Rotterdam. His artwork was featured in a short article by Prof Tom Arcaro from Elon University. He is also a contributor to Rohingyatographer Magazine.
The Identity I Uphold copyright © Ro Anamul Hasan